My First Post.... oh la la

Oh my my ! My first post. I am not quite sure how to start this off, so I will just ramble until something comes out. I just came home about a week ago from a trip of a lifetime. Spending 5 weeks in Costa Rica actually changed my life. Changed my wants, my self esteem, confidence, even my morals. I met some of the most amazing people that any girl should be so thankful and blessed to know. People who you can count on, depend on, trust, and love. My biggest fear right now is losing contact with specifically 4 of these people. These girls are so strong, smart and hilarious and I never met people like them. There is this very serious and deep knot inside of me that losing these friends would be devestating. Life seems to make more sense when they are around so I have decided I need to be close to some of them. One of them might even read this and she in particular is dear to me. I don't know if she realizes how important she is. She showed to me every day what having a real friend feels like. I never in my whole life have been scared of losing a friend until now. Moving might be the only option, as extreme as that may be. Since expressing to my family my desire to me, surprisingly, I have received full support. There is this acknowledgement from them that I truly was miserable before and that may it is where I am living. Stuck up, snobby, rude, judgemental people in a small town where most of them have never explored the world and have just settled is not the life for me. I don't think it is greedy to want more for yourself. And I do. I really want more. So I am going for it. It has been decided.